Pondering Questions

"What is wrong with me?" I have had some time to ponder over this question. 

I am different. I beat to a different drum. I am an odd duck. All true. All good. When we realize we are different from others, sometimes we feel lonely, isolated, and talk about not fitting in!!!!

Well, I am different. What makes me different? I think it is that I try to really be authentic. I am a Christian at heart. The problem is that people in churches are hypocrites. Well, so am I. By default all people cannot be perfect and not do everything a Christian states he can do because of his imperfection. So, every area of life this is true. 

​"Why do I exist?" This is ponder much of the time.

It really reflects in Malsow's hierarchy of needs: security, safety, belonging, self esteem, and self actualization. Early in life we conquer the first three quite easily. (OK, I realize that isn't always so easy). Self esteem, well it took me 40 plus years to begin to find peace with me. Self actualization refers to the need for personal growth and development throughout one's life. Maslow coined the term self actualization to describe the growth of an individual toward fulfillment of their highest needs those most advanced concepts and “big questions” humans struggle with, such as the pursuit of the meaning of life.

So now I am in the stage that is pondering the questions of why, what is my purpose, does it/life matter?

​After reflecting to the question of what's wrong with me, reminding my friend I new I was different, watching a new Darren Daily video, and being able to discuss this with my friend and my daughter, I had a light bulb go off. I know why I exist. 

​God is the true center of my life. When I am off balance he didn't move I did. Jesus is pivotal in my relationship to God because he states that he is God and that he would die on a cross and come back because he loves me. And because he really did, I believe him. Jesus exists so we can have a relationship with God. He came to serve the lost and unloved and show God's love is personal. He is love.

Light bulb!!!

​Post watching the movie, I figured it out. I reflected I exist to share God's love. I have always done that. As a child I learned JOY: Jesus, others, yourself, I learned some basic principles of my faith. As a mom, I had developed a stronger faith and was able to share and continue t0 share with my family. As a leader to women and in my work, I will always share my faith, if the opportunity is set and I see it, :).  My mission has always been to help others discover, empower becoming their best. I exist to share God's love so you can be your best. 

Amazing that it is so simple and I complicate my life daily trying to figure this out. Simon Sinek in his golden circle explains great companies succeed because they know their WHY. So I think, what is my why. People like to hang with people who believe what they believe. So what do I believe? It wasn't clear and my days were frustrating to me. When you are clear what your project for the day is, what your project for your work is, what your role as a husband/wife/friend is, it is easier to accomplish the goal. 

The second and third circles of the Golden Circle deal with the How and the What. How do I do what I believe in and What do I is the result. Reflecting on his directions, if you are crystal clear on your why everything else falls into place. This is a universal truth: in your relationships, in your work, in your fun!!!

The simplicity of today is I exist to share the love of God every day and help you become your best.

Why do you exist?